참..열받고 짜증나는 한해였어…
But it’s almost over. I hope next year will be better, especially career-wise.
Here are some of the things (people) I wanted to be thankful for…er, thankful to. (Thankful or not)
—————-Edit: I was gonna post this before 2010…Too late. I was waaaay to busy talking to Yuri for 6 hours straight.—–
Yum. Udon :D
I don’t wanna do numbers. I don’t wanna say “first, second”. It feels like I’m rating people who are important to me.
Anyhoo, so here it goes…
This is “H” at Ikea. We were playing zombie in the closet!
Dear H,
Thank you so much for everything. Everything. really. EVERYTHING… I don’t know what to say.
You are always so sweet, and you care for me. Even though I always say “you hate me” as a joke, I know that you know that I know that we love each other.
MunShaa is forever. More than diamonds.
I’m sorry I can’t support you as much as you support me emotionally. I wish I can do more. I wish I can be better…to you.
I really don’t know what to say… Thank you for being with me. Thank you for putting up with me.
I know we will be happier this year. 열심히 노력하자.
많이 정말 많이 사랑해.
Dear Y,
We came such a long way. I know there were times where we weren’t that close (during highschool?) I still love you so much.
You are so dear to me, and probably only one that gets me inside and out, even my crabby ugly past.
Even though you tell me (and I feel that way too) that we grew about 10 years older on ’09,
we are still young, right? We’ll reach that happy ideal life of ours in no time.
I hope you won’t get so stressed out this year. I hope you feel better about your job (or, a new job, right? wink wink).
I hope you get guts to say “fuck you” to your co-workers. (I hope I get that too.)
May we never run out of things to talk about. May we laugh at those who laugh at us after 5 years (or sooner).
Thank you so much for being there for me. Thank you for listening to me talk about stupid things…to deepest darkest secrets.
Thank you for accepting me as who I am when I was afraid that people would shun me for being different. Thank you, thank you.
Thank you for understanding me, looking past what I say or do, but just understanding what I am, and who I am.
I love you, BFF forever!
This is “S” at the mystery theater.
Dear S,
You’ll be surprised to know how much I miss you. I miss you so much, I miss you when I talk to my friends, I miss you almost every weekend.
I know I am getting better, but sometimes I just want to pick up the damn phone and call you.
I’m sure you think the same way, but you can’t act upon it because you are afraid of rejection.
Ah, how alike we are…
We are probably the most different person ever. You are everything that I am not, and I am everything that you are not.
Yet we managed to make connections, and we came so far.
Let’s think that we are taking a short break, no?
Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for bugging me to have a social life.
I hated being a mom to you, but I even miss that too, sometimes.
Thank you for making me realize that at times, my life is important than somebody else’s.
Thank you for letting me know that I can make a friendship with people that are far different than your typical friends.
And to really make connections, and understand them in a different level.
I remember that you cared for me. I remember that you tried to make porridge when I took out my tooth, and you failed and asked your mom for help.
I remember that you told me somehow, you know that I will be a successful artist someday, even when I didn’t believe in myself.
I remember that you said I was your bestest best friend, and you never had a human connection as deep as what we had.
I remember all those things. And I am sorry that it had to happen this way.
I still am not ready for you. When I settle down, when you come back, maybe then I will be ready.
But thank you still, for everything.
This is “J” at Ikea…we were going for the “naked guy in the picture blurred” look.
Dear J (This one’s easy to figure out)
Thank you for being my sandbag when I was little, thank you for being the “big person”.
Even though you kinda suck at doing house chores and such, I think I see a lot of improvement :D.
You know I love you, right?
Thanks for buying me food, and I’m sorry I snap at you at times. I’m just sensitive about money.
Thank you for standing up to the wicked witch of the west, when I’m not at fault.
I know you’ll get a raise, and earn a lot of money, and move out. 고생좀 해봐라 ㅋㅋㅋ;;;
Naw, I’ll give you my fried rice recipe when you move out.
I feel like a big sister to you many times, but I still think you are very 든든해 for me. So thanks.
I wish you can find a person who loves you a lot, someone who can mend your lost childhood.
May we never end up like my mother’s siblings. (Oh god..) I know we won’t, but sometimes it scares me. (heehee)
This is “S”. I did her make up for homecoming.
Dear S,
Thank you for….wait, you better thank me.
I know I wasn’t really good when you were young, but I feel like I connect with you more as you grow older.
You know the reason I hate kids and don’t want my own is because of you, right? Thanks a lot. (haha)
I still love you, and I always want the best for you.
This is “E”
Dear E,
Thank you for letting us stay at your pad when we went to NYC. It was really nice. And I’m always sorry about the fact that you buy us food!!!
At that, expensive food.
Someday when I get a better job, I’ll buy you a nice meal!
Thank you for thinking of me, and staying so cool after meeting me again in like, 10 years.
I hope some better stuff is in your way.
This is “C” at the…Santa Monica beach.
Dear C,
Thank you for teaching me how to survive in tough world.
Because of you I learned to bite my tongue and not say much in front of people in authority, because supposedly to some people, “Hello” can be offensive.
Thank you for making me feel suicidal. Thank you for pushing me off the cliff, so I can stand on my own, even though that was completely unnecessary.
Yet, thank you for raising me in this horrible condition. I’m still not schizophrenic nor crazy! Horray for me.
No, seriously, I do thank you for supporting me, even though in a way, you never really supported me.
This year I probably got the most support from you, counting my entire life.
I really wanna pay you back and get the fuck outta here, but I still feel a little empathy for you.
I wish you won’t hold on to us. I wish you will get a man (or a woman) and find something else to hold on to after we are gone.
I just feel really bad that after couple of years, we will be all gone and you will be left alone.
I’m still amazed at the fact that the person I wanted to kill the most still talks to me, and sometimes we have similar opinion about things (like soo’s boyfriend)
and we can laugh about things. Life is, person-to-person connection is, a wonderous thing.
I wish you good luck and a lot of moolah on your way, so I really don’t have to pay you.
This is “k” graduating two years ago.
Dear K,
Thank you for visiting us this year. I wish I really cleaned my bathtub before you used it though.. Sorry.
Thank you for not forgetting about us after all these years, and thank you for all the great presents you send us.
Please don’t be a stranger. I’ll go visit you someday soon and you better show me around.
We always enjoy your presents. Haha, I hope you enjoy ours too.
I wish all your family stuff gets solved. I wish your mother gets better.
don’t work too hard to support your mother on your own. Things will work out soon enough.
We love you, and ganbatteru!
“S” at museum.
Dear S,
Thank you for keeping connection after all these years. I love talking to you, I love and enjoy your emails.
I wanted to thank you for the fact that you listened to me when we were stuck at that cute airport.
I know I can sometimes be too revealing (about my personal stuff) and I feel like I kinda dumped random personal stuff to you.
But I do thank you for taking me earnestly and sincerely. Thank you for remembering me.
This is “K” wearing my shirt.
Dear K,
I’m so surprised we came so far. I became your friend-friend. Amazing that I still have a friend from hagwon.
I know you are having a hard time after getting married (I’m sure it’s a lot to chew with work and school) I know that you’ll do well.
I always wanted you to meet a nice gal, but I think the dimension of that is a little off. It’s ok, if you are happy, I’m happy.
Thank you for staying true, always. You are probably the most straight (not sexually) minded person that I’ve every known.
You are like a home meal. Something that I have since I was a kid. And I know that nothing in the world will change who you are.
And I love you for it. But even if you change, I will still love you. I’m glad that you are no longer ” I have 15 bucks until end of the month” person.
I’m glad you actually have somebody that takes care of you, because you deserve it. People like you makes a fun world.
Just know that if you need anything I’ll be there. Thank you for being like a comfort food. I admire that about you.
I always thought if I ever married a man, I would marry a guy like you. And then I wished my sister would meet a guy like you.
But you are taken. And my sister is too. She’s otaku, but you are too much of an otaku. hahahahahha. That’s why J is perfect for you.
There’s so much more…but it’s freaking 3 in the morning. I’m gonna make rest short.. (I don’t even have pic of them)
Thank you Sandy for keeping contact after work.
Thanks Lisa for all the connections.
Thank you Aeri for job offer (even though I didn’t take em). I really wish you would find a better man.
Thank you Lori, we only met once, but you introduced me to your friend. It didn’t work out but I’m ever so grateful that you remembered me.
Thank you David for everything. I hope you get a divorce and meet a better girl that suits you.
Thank you to Imo and emoboo for treating me like I’m their own daughter. Even though you are a bitch to everyone else (not emoboo), I appreciate the fact that I am appreciated.
Thank you to Gerri, for remembering me and calling me friend. You are as wacky as me and I love that. I love the fact that you tell me that you love me.